Monday, March 22, 2010

4. When I'm going to grow up?

After a terrific experience about 9 months ago, I came to appreciate life better than before, yet there is one thing that I could hardly change. It’s my short temper. I don’t know how to be diplomatic with others...especially with those lower subordinates than mine. Ok, don’t get me wrong here. I’m absolutely not the type that looks down on people or individualistic. But its kind of hard for to order or to get done with my job with rude, lazy and stubborn workers. Being a fast response and a lil perfectionist I always want the job to get done fast and with some sort of responsibility where you care on the quality of your job. So, whenever I have to work with the above mention type of workers, I just get tense, and at the end, ended up with fighting. Ok, I know how shame it is...when I try my level to not involve myself in such scene, people around me just right there to test my patient.

It’s not the very first time I would say. When I think back, I don’t know who to blame to...probably I should be more diplomatic with them. Huh! Why some people just can’t do what instructed or if you don’t know the purpose for particular instruction, ask someone to get clear picture instead of being so silly and rude? Talking about diplomatic, I remember of someone here...hmm lets give name as U.

U used to tell me this when I asked him, where in the world that he found E and appoint him as his factory manager: “what to do, velle agunum na, ore kanne mudikethe than irukunum” I don’t agree with this, how could you tolerate when you know even another hundred years the person not going to change and how could you take so much risk in putting your life/income in hand of such person? Only U knows the answer. If me, I rather correct my mistake than to go on with it, just for the sole reason that I don’t want people thinks I’m so cruel or incapable in taking decision...make sense? What I meant is perhaps U don’t want anybody thinks that he made mistake in choosing E earlier, and since he got his ego, of course he don’t want to show he made such huge mistake.

Being a chronic female I’m, I had done so many silly mistakes (excludes above mention), being so childish when its need my maturity, follow what my heart say instead of brain, react immaturely in front public people or love one and I’m sure you too right? But perhaps not as cranky as me. I don’t know when my silly decisions and acts will come to the end...

Your truly (21.03.10)

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