26.What you think?

This topic was in my mind for quite sometime ready....Lately, i realize people tend to judge somebody based on their physical appearace. I do agree that first impression is important where one has to be well dressed and look presentable. But, its sometime difficult for those with extra kilo in their body. No matter how they dress, its still gonna affected compare to those skiny people, even they wear a simple t-shirt, it will still look good on them. Besides dressing, the main thing that i wanted to stress here is...our justification towards this extra kilos people around us! Don’t they deserve like others?

I came to a blog a few months (when i was hoping from one blog to another) where the author described how she was laughed and questioned by her friends when she admitted that she has this special feeling for a guy from their course. Nah, to be true, me too. Use to think that those extra kgs are not equivalent to us, how come they can fall in love with those beautiful girls/guys? Don’t they look themselves in mirror every morning? Soon, i grow up and realize love grow from heart and to mind and has nothing to do with body size. Everyone can fall in love with anyone at anytime.... Now the question is why you always feel those extra kgs not to same as you?????

I have met at least a bunch of genius (during school la) who is actually overweight and there was an article too telling those extra kilos people has soft heart/kind hearted long time ago.....true??? No idea. Not only in love matter, i guess overall, take any issue, bottom of our heart we don’t really feel confidence with them rite?

Feel free to drop anything in this topic as I like to know it....

25. Tag

was reading someone blog where i found this tag. Since the author encourage anyone reading his blog can give a try, so why not do it?

Here goes!

1. What one material thing are you hoping/ scoping to inherit?
all the vedas

2. You're driving. It's great weather. Attractive member of opposite sex in expensive car looks at you and half-smiles. You're in a relationship. Do you return the look and half-smile back?
Yes i do, what’s a big deal with a smile after all.

3. Can't smell or can't taste? For six months, and if you had to chose, would you rather lose your sense of smell or not be able to taste anything?
I rather go for taste...

4. Pick a situation
a. You're 42. Would you rather go without sex for three years and win a lottery after that, enabling you to never have to work again? Or
b. Get twice the lottery money now (at 42) but have your partner sleep with your boss?
Of course i want the first option....

5. What's a quicker turn off, bad pronunciation or maroon lipstick?
Maroon lipstick

7. For which one thing have you not forgiven your mother?
For working harder and harder

6. Would you rather your kid turn out to be a nymphomaniac or gay?(For my amusement, please answer in the format: I would rather my kid be ---)
I would rather my kid be whatever they want to be!

8. Would you rather go bald or lose your front tooth?
Go bald! New fashion nah?

9. Your sibling is sleeping with your married close friend. Who do you go to first, sibling or married close friend?
no one

10. When was the last time you cried that wasn't while watching a movie?
3 weeks ago

Your Truly (30.06.10)

24. They made my day

R1 and R2 's existance is inevitable in my life. I never share or even talk on them at public, except to my family. Only mum had seen their pics. there is time where i kept my life as personal as i can. besides there is reason behind it. i never bring up any topic of them while with close friends even i always wanted to share to everyone how this two small creature made my day.....since i can't introduce them to the world, i would like to do here, in illusion world....

to R1 and R2:

"You guys are just rock! you are rockin my world"

was going thru last year email,and found this, sent by R2:

hhaahahahahahahahahaha

Your Truly (12.06.10)

23. Chronicle of M word (part 4)

And its all over....it's a sad world
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The guy who was propose for me and the same who seeks for another girl since the jathagam is not match, now rejecting her too....since is "gunndu"
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i'm speechless....really no joke, i hope guys like this marry beautiful girl at the end of the day but suffer rest of their life
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don't asked me why i'm so tense, i merely has answer for that.


Your truly (06.06.10)

22. My work buddy wedding

Today is Hajar’s wedding, my co-worker at new work place. Wishing her a happy married life and hope she is very very happy with Mr Husband! I’m gonna move to new house very soon, and she is the one renting me house. Thank you my savior! Don’t want to tell very details, so hope that’s enough to roughly describe my current state, when you are left a side without home. And hope that, nothing will happen again since I’m going back to those old days of staying alone...in a house, alone and alone! Will try my best to get internet connection done. So, i don’t really need to spare time outside and coming back home late as before....chaiyok!





Your Truly (05.06.10)

21. 25 random thing about me

was reading a blog and thought of doing this...

1. I’m extremely sensitive type
2. I’m a book warm, in fact I read any book....as long as I have interest
3. I can’t live without music, I once/twice or even more complained by my neighbour for playing song loudly, till the whole flat can hear it clearly....and distract them to the core since one day, he came and shouted in front of my house (happened a year ago) asking why I played song so loudly at 7 am on sunday...poor guy he just woke up from sleep
4. blogging has ability to make me become calmer....another sole reason why I blogs on crap topics
5. I always think that I’m a celebrity, a pop singer. Haahhaha, I use whatever I get in my hand as microphone and start humming, pretending that I was singing like Shriya Goushal
6. I love my family more than anything, money would take priority as no. 2
7. I always what I’m, my relative always label me as ‘weird’ kid....well I always think that they are the bad intended people that I ever know... hope they all die soon...
8. I hate liar...those who loves to cook up story even they themselves know what they spreading is not true (I don’t LIE-something that I always proud of me)
9. God is my best friend, don’t believe me? or shall I put in this way, I’m god’s best friend?
10. I love dancing, but I don’t know how to dance....want to spare some time to teach me dancing?
11. Indian classical music able to turn me upside down...ah, I just love them
12. Sophie Kinsella is my favourites author....now ’can you keep a secret?’
13. I’m a movie buzz, I don’t really care on language, any good story will do
14. I’m a best judge for myself, i act in the way that i think right, and they do right for me with minor/huge mistakes at time, 70% would be the appropriate one, left 30%, I’m still learning
15. I’m the most honest, the truth out of me yet confused and rebel woman that you may ever meet
16. I’m simple, not a fashionita
17. I have short hair
18. my belly button is not pierced
19. I’m not a spoilt kid, I don’t smoke, drink, go out with guys, or anything else that similar...thank god!
20. I scream when someone purposely made me angry, watch out-I can turn into a human dinosaur and open mouth as big as I can
21. Brat Pitt is my man, no joke
22. I’m in love with U, but I know its a waste of time, energy, waste of everything actually
23. I always think that I should born 200 years ago, I’m not suits to this modern and greedy world-can I use time traveler to go back?
24. I hate chatting, I don’t find facebook interesting, in fact I felt annoyed without particular reason, can’t figured out why I felt so till today
25. I’m a lefty
    

Nah, that’s all what I can think off right now. Now mind to share 25 random things about you?

Your Truly (02.06.10)

20. The chronicle of M word (Part 3)

again was in phone late this evening while cinama told me, remember the guy that we propose for you? the one got match with another girl? he wanted to think twice....wether want to marry her or not, coz she is 'FAT'!!!!!

(f'uck! what the hell is this-me, monologing within me, now can anyone out there tell me how this fat thingy become measure for marriage? so if you, marry a slim girl and after marriage, she become fat, you gonna left her and find another one and this thing going to repeat over and over? )



* i tried my best to let her know that, happiness in marriage is not based on physical yet how both of them adjusting, understand and live together. " cinama, gunnde, apedine pakethingge, oruvale, rombe nalle gul iruntha? orutha venggolode physical modum pothatu...."

hmmm, now don't you agree that i'm pretty good woman? even, i have to let the guy go, for another one, i'm still hoping that somehow he would be happy and for the poor gul too....nah, that me!

p/s: out of all this thing, i don't know why a good woman like me never able to find a life partner for herself but, want to see others living happily....again, that me i guess...

Your truly (31.05.10)

19. facing black period!

was been a while since i post anything over here...felt guilty, to go off just like that...franly speaking, i had that intention earlier....want to stop writting, leave this blog hanging..but, my inner tolds me that i should keep something, something the true of me....something that records everything of me, those that i can't share or tell others or neither do they understand them....shall in case i'm no more in this world, i know somehow, somewhere someone might reads this and at least will try to feel the same as mine....i was totally in problems, had problems and going to face lots and lots problems and i knw everyone too. but mine is always different, i always become victims of circumstances and do to some bad people around me....why i always feel that 'm so different from others??? why me?

in deep problem now and i don't see the solution yet....sometimes, i felt i'm too emo or some kind of moron....i just can't control my self, i mean my anger....why i was circle by those bad intention people, where are those good one? where are they, i want to be with them....can anyone save me?

shall i die of frustration, this blog is the a treasure (even, it don't seems to be one) at least for me....coz i just can find anyone that can read my mind or at least try to understand me....i'm pure and true...

your truly (31.05.10)

17. Hair Massage..

How would you guys take care on your hair and skin? I would like to slip some tips on beauty here.

• Mix an egg with any vitamin E contained oil in a bowl, apply them on your hair and leave for about 20 minutes. Rinse off and dry your hair. Perform once a week to get healthy and shining hair. You may apply the same paste to your face to remove dead tissues and get fresher look.


• Mix one table of spoon of lemon juice one cup of pure coconut milk. Apply this lotion on scalp and allow it to dry. Rinse it well with warm water.


• Or just buy hair massage creams from any Watson outlet and do hair treatment at home!

Your truly(10.04.10)

16. Movies

Watched vinnaithandi varuvaya last night. I knew it's quite late, but I was busy lately. Being in a new workplace required me to pay full attention on the whole process and spend my spare time to read all the reference books. I was really exhausted this week, work, rotating for dispatching (have to stay back, 9pm), reach home about 10pm every night and managed some personal matters….wow…lil hard.

Ah, back to VTV, I would like to describe a lil bit(even i'm not a profesional movie viewer)- a wonderful movie, hands off to Gautam Vasudev Menon. Enjoyed the 2 hours of the movie, from the start till the end. Not even once I feel the story being drag or any irrational scene. Short, simple and sweet, yup, that’s it! A good movie for year opening, I would say. Hopefully there would be more films like VTV being screen for public view. I have to tell you that I adore Trisha a lot, and she has given her best. What an incredible acting! Simbu isn’t my favorite actor…so, ignore him….what atracted me most is the pleasant background, Kerala such greenplace, natural stuffs and so on. I felt I like I'm into the movie itself. It does affected me somehow, just what screened in VTV is the different in religious, personal behaviours while mine perhaps more to msociety status…ah, whatever, I have to move on. There are a lot more things that I wanted to do….my dream never left me alone. Opps, forgotten something here, voice for trisham is same to the one used in Varaanam Ayiram (sameera Reddy), language wise, English been used here and there-not fully Tamil, which gives modern style –gautham menon’s trade mark!

plus, spend weekend watching another 2 movies, Angadi Theru and Theeratha Vilayattu Pillai. My rating:
AT: 3.5/5
TVP: 3/5

Overall, the movies isn’t too bad. Nice to watch them and I am currently hooked with one of the song from AT. What a song...

Aval appadi onrum alegu ellai,
Aveleku yarum nidai ellai,
Aval appadi ondrum color ellai,
Annal athil oru kurai ellai...

Aval peritha ondrum padikevillai,
Avelai padithen mudikevillai,
Aval uduthum udaigal pidikevillai,
Irunthum gavenaikai marukevillai....

If only all the guys are as humble as describe in the song...

Your truly (03.04.10)

15. Malaysian

It’s sad to tell everyone that even after 53 years of independent, some remain racist in Malaysia. Or i don’t know if I’m the one unlucky, has to face them each time. When i was studying in school or uni, people do talks around about this issue, but it doesn’t affect me much, but when come to working life, I came to know how the feeling of those being indirectly bullied. Can’t we throw that racism one side? It been half century yet we haven’t learn from the past or those people are resistance to change their mentality? I’m actually talking about the narrow minded people around me which I had commented in earlier post. Since this is the only void that I can deliver my personal things as much I want, I strongly feel that there is deviation among Malaysian esp Chinese. I’m not criticizing anyone here, yet it’s more to my own justification based on observation and experience. Chinese tend to isolate and a bit selfish compare to other races in this country. I don’t think I have to give an example as you have to look around and justify yourself whether I’m delivering a right thing or not and then make your conclusion....

Anyhow, my motive to write this post is not to pin point certain races, but to tell everyone how sad it is when during our grandpa grandma time, their have united and work hard to gain independent but we don’t really appreciating it! We don’t really sustaining it, or do anything for continuous development on the bonding that already formed.

Take your time and think about it! How to live in harmony when the basic thing-our minds is not having right concept/mentality?

Your truly (03.04.10)

14. The Chronicle of M word (Part 2)

We tend to appreciate things better after we go through some lost earlier or face bad experience, right na? I used think why I never have a boyfriend or married by now. And after cancelled marriage proposal, I was heart broken at first but as time past I’m back to normal. But again, this question pop up again, why doesn’t that marriage proposal workout? Why it have to be cancelled? Is god trying to get me ready for future? I mean to let me appreciate the guy that I may marry one day?




Your truly (28.03.10)

13. Am I addicted?

I wanted to be in front PC (with internet connection) almost all the time...24/7. God, what I’m up to actually? Is this called addiction?

Your truly (28.03.10)

12. Alice in wonderland

Watched two weeks ago. Nothing so interesting to say about. If you seeking for a relax movie without much expectation, then this would be a good one or if you thinking how spend your weekend with your children, bring them to watch it in theater.
My rate: 3/5


Your Truly (28.03.10)

11. He

He is always disturbing my mind...
he is not so crucial to my life...
yet, memory of him is always there...
inviting me, to remind him...
again and again...

He make me feel excited to go to cyber cafe...
he make me smile infront pc...
he inspirate me to struggle with life...
even his memory made me felf anger towards him...
somehow he became the first one i think when i wake up...

he is the one i hate most...
he is the one ruin my life...
he is the one i hope not to meet again...
he is the one i wanted to be with in next generation...

to you my readers...
i pledge to try my level best not remember him anymore...
i wish his image will vanish from my mind...
let me alone in my own little world...

Goodbye U!


Your truly (27.03.10)

10. The chronicle of 'M' word (part 1)

I was proposed to get marry with my citapa’s best friend 2 months ago and I agreed, but due to our compatibility wasn’t good, it was cancelled and I move back to my normal life. I was a bit sad at early but soon realized that there is nothing in our hand. We only can plan but HE will decide what best for us.

However, mom didn’t take it as easy as I’m. She starts suspecting me as though I’m having affair with the guy and avoiding her. God, I have no clue where she got such idea. Can’t she put a little bit of trust on her daughter? Today is none other days where she called and starts asking on distance of my house from citapa house. Mum knows the guy’s house is near citapa’s. God, sometime I feel fed up and being a victim of circumstances isn’t easy, plus with frustration cause by U. Why I have to stuck in between people who never try to understand me? Mom: stop suspecting as I’m the worst kid in the world and I swear, I have no affair with any guy!

Since from the ‘M’(marriage) word being posted on me, I feel sad, irritate and never ending frustration. There is time where I try to guess who is the guy that going to marry me at the end, where he is now and how he would be or would I ended being single forever? Even R1 and R2 nowadays, start asking me when I’m going to marry. But, the problem is, can’t everyone open their eyes and see, it’s not easy to find a life partner k...its really not that easy. For example let’s take U. Can U be him? Definitely not. The reasons are so obvious- he is rich (which I don’t want), he has big car/house or what ever property (which I don’t prefer), too educated for me (I’m not so, Malaysian education system is still low standard compare to India), he is a foreigner (I’m belong to here), different social life – he, high class people life style (me, my own style- there is time where I appear in public with just slippers and I don’t mind wearing it), he looks too old for me – plus with his huge tummy (I’m like college drop out girl, young, childish look) and last but not least, definitely I’m not going to be his taste! Low earning (compare to his $ dollar income). So, being optimist, I know who I’m, I kept myself from contacting U.

Your truly (24.03.10)

9. Surround by narrow minded people

It’s sad when you meet almost perfect person ever but soon realize that he is a narrow minded. It’s same like a beautiful woman but a prostitute. Sometime, i just don’t get this type of person. They were educated, coming from good value family, good looking and etc yet, close minded.


Your truly (23.03.10)

8. Can change the question ah?

Do you ever encounter this? Where someone asks you to change the question when his/her answer for the question isn’t the correct one...that was what just happened. R2 was assigned with work as usual and when I told him that his answer was wrong, he instead of correcting it, requested me to change the question to suits his answer...haiyo nowadays kid, I tell you...where he got such ideas?


Your Truly (23.03.10)

8. Opppss...

was caught red handed by Mr assistant factory manager when i amusingly typing a post during lunch hour! Achoo...

Promise, I won't do it again...

Your truly (22.03.10)

7. What you think of me?

I used to like U, I mean for the positive things that he possess not for the other thing, mind you. But, that was a few months back. Now, I don’t know whether I should feel the same. As I told before, it’s a waste to show cares to the one who don’t deserve for it coz simply they wouldn’t know to appreciate it. Today B send me text message asking how and where I’m and how is my leg. I don’t think I want to carry on with this game anymore, I’m not going to play hide and seek as U, I rather to stand firm on who I’m. I don’t want to act or pretend to be somebody. I want to be myself. Yup, that’s me. The true of me. So, I had send him this as reply; ‘hmmm, I think you better concentrate on your life than mine. Sorry…’

I know it wasn’t B the one who wanted to know about me, but U. Now, why don't U contact himself? He always did this, use someone to know about others. What so difficult with contacting directly? After thinking for a while, perhaps U want to protect his social status, i mean he is a big man, how if a girl look down or cook up some stories...or he might thinks that he will lost his pride if he contact some tiny person.. For me, its very simple, if you feel so embrasse to contact me directly, its better you don't need to know how i'm doing. Why in the world that you need to use someone as your middle man..


Your truly (22.03.10)